So it has been a while since I have 'blogged' (feels like a confession).  I have been living in Struggle Town a bit lately.  I went away to QLD on a family holiday and I will admit that I wasn't the best, and put on 1.3kgs.   I have lost that weight and more, but I am finding it extremely difficult to keep motivated.  I tried on pair of jeans the other day that I haven't  been able to fit into for about six years, and they fit.  You would think that would be motivation enough.  I was motivated for a whole day. 

I am finding the eating a bore, and get overwhelmed thinking that this is my way of life now.  My goal seems so unachievable.  I know I should only think of short term goals, but that doesn't work for me.  The fact is i still need to lose around 30 odd kilos and knowing how hard it has been to lose 18 kgs (since October)  I don't know if I have it in me to lose the next 30.